It could have been a lazy, restful, day ... but it wasn't.
Words that led to more words ... frustrations that overwhelmed us both.
I guess it was just one of those "pop-off" days ... when the stress of everything got to us both and since we are each other's "onlies" and there is a margin of safety with one another ... well ... NOT a good day at all.
The best part of Sunday? It is over. Sigh. Sad ... but it is the truth!
Today I will praise Him.
Today I will count my blessings, one by one.
Today I will work towards being that "woman without words" - I Peter 3.
Today I will just breathe in ... and breathe out.
Storms and rainbows. One follows the other.
Yes, I feel worn from the weekend. But God is greater in me. His Word is true - and so today, I will see the power of His word - that when I am weak, HE is strong.
*We are needing to have some conversations - with one another, and with others - that will not be easy this week. Decisions that will need to be talked about, and made. Decisions that will be difficult to make ... but we do desire a better life - the best that God has for us.
*There is a possibility of me losing my phone. We will still have Rick's phone, or we will have to get just a simple one. Right now, we are with Sprint. We have a good plan - unlimited on my phone. And I USE it! LOL. But the cost seems to be going up every month. And now, with us just being on Rick's disability check - we cannot afford it. Besides, my phone is messing up again. Already had to pay $100 to replace it. My contract isn't up until March of 2015. I don't have the money to replace it now. ???
*There is also a possibility of me losing my Internet service. We are with Dish - for our TV and our Internet. Yes, the Internet is an outlet for me ... and I really, really, really don't want to lose it. But there again - monthly costs. We are going to talk with Dish, and if they will work with us on a better plan ... sigh. Our contract is up within 3 months - and I have been told to talk with their Loyalty Department. ???
*I may lose this computer. I have only had it for just a little over a month. I have another computer - but it does not work. I cannot even keep it going long enough to pull my journal and family pictures out of it. (Another prayer request please! And if you have any ideas of how to do this - PLEASE!!!) The cost of this computer, financed, is not a bad price - but just trying to meet that price each month now ... I don't know. Sigh. I will need to talk to the company where it is financed. ???
*If I lose the computer ... and I lose the Internet ... well ... this website will go down, or at least go dormant. The website itself is paid for until May of 2015 (I think). But without a computer, and without the Internet, there will be no way for me to write, or work on it. ???
*Our bills need to come down so that we can buy Rick's meds (and mine). He is also supposed to eat 4 times the amount of protein as anyone else. The dietician pushes constantly for him to eat MEAT! I asked her if there were any programs that helped me to buy the MEAT. No there isn't. It's hard enough for him to eat the meat that he needs - but he sure can't if I cannot buy it. His protein levels have dropped from 4.0 to 3.5 - a MAJOR drop! This means that he cannot fight infections as well, neither can his body heal the way it should from falls. Sigh. Pray for him please. And pray for me to know how to get these bills down and paid, as well as get his meds bought, and the food he is supposed to eat.
God is faithful to His promises. He has promised to meet all our needs according to His riches in glory thru Christ Jesus. It's just that sometimes what we look at as "needs" He doesn't.