Yes, I can relate to the anguish and cries of St. Paul's voice in Romans 7!!!
Now, Rick says that I am a very obedient and submissive wife ... that I have always done exactly what he has told me to ... cause - he told me to do what I wanted to do! LOL
However, I do struggle with submission.
Submitting to God.
Submitting to my husband.
Submitting even to certain laws and authorities.
Have you ever noticed that when you agree with a law, a Scripture, an authority that submission actually comes easy???
I do not for a moment believe that submission means laying down and letting others take advantage of me, of being a "doormat" to anyone.
I do believe that submission is an outward sign of an inward TRUST.
If I TRUST God to have my best in His heart and mind and plans - then, submitting to Him, letting go and letting God have His way, won't be that hard to do.
If I TRUST Rick that as my husband he is seeking God for wisdom and direction in our marriage and in our life - then submitting to him won't be that hard to do, either.
If I TRUST ... TRUST involves taking my hands off the controls and giving those controls to another.
<<Definition of TRUST ... (1) reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety of a person
(2) confident expectation
(4) to believe
Interesting ... I Corinthians 13:7 ... "It (love) always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
LOVE = TRUST = SUBMISSION ...
SUBMISSION = TRUST = LOVE.
Do I love God? Then I will trust Him. I will submit to Him.
Do I love my husband? Then I will trust him. I will submit to him.
Love takes the "ugliness" out of the word
**Father God, help me to show my love to you (and to my husband) by trusting you, by submitting to you. Thank you for understanding the struggles of my humanity and Christianity. Thank you for Jesus - my example of love and trust and submission. Even He struggled in the Garden ... "Let this cup pass from me ... but not my will be done". Help me Jesus to be more like you!**