Rick, i sit here this morning with a thousand thoughts and memories.
Sifting thru them, wondering what to write about. It's hard sometimes to find the words - when i love you so much, when i miss you like crazy. But what comes to the front of my mind and heart this morning is the independence you put in me. When we got married, 35+ years ago, you asked me if i wanted a career - outside the home. You told me before i answered that you would support me and do all you could to help me - whatever i wanted to do. I didn't even have to think about it. I remember looking at you - and telling you that i wanted to be your wife, the mother of your children one day, and the keeper of your home. I still see the pride and joy in your eyes. I see the glistening of passion and honor there. And i hear your voice - "Well, then. I will make the living, you make the living worthwhile." That is what we did ... for 34 years, 7 months, 17 days and 11 hours. You also said, how many times did you say this to others? - "I have a very obedient wife." Other guys would look at you and call "Bullshit" -- and your answer was always the same ... "No seriously - she is very obedient. Always does exactly what i tell her. Because i told her to do whatever she wants to do - and i am big enough to back her up in it. And that is what she does - whatever she wants to!" I miss that about you. But i am so thankful for all those years of having that from you. Course, that makes me a little more hard to deal with now. LOL ... There are those that wish i would listen to what they think and say more. That wish i was not so independently minded. LOL ... All i can say - Oh well! It is who i am ... Rick worked too hard to get me to where i am. I will honor your legacy, your memory. And i will stand on my own feet, even if i stumble and fall. I miss knowing that you are there to steady me, or pick me up. I miss knowing that you are there to defend me. Makes me feel a bit vulnerable now. But - I am learning to stand firm. To draw those lines about meself. I love you Rick. I miss you.
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September 5, 1980The day my life began as Mrs. Rick McCoy. No greater joy, no greater passion - Thank you Sweetheart for choosing me. I love you - always have and forever will!!!!! Categories
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