"O Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath."
v. 1 ... I have read the stories in the Bible of when God was angry! I want Him to take a "time out" before dealing with me! LOL Thank God for His mercy that is new every morning!!!
"How long, O Lord, how long?"
v. 3 ... I have been asking this of the Lord for the last couple of months (at least). How long must we go without ... how long must we endure the trials and the fires? Well, God has finally answered me. However - NOT the answer I wanted!!! He says, "Until you start doing what I have already told you to do!
When you begin to walk the talk!!!" Ouch!
"I am worn out from groaning ..."
v. 6 ... But am I worn out enough to obey? Did I honestly think that I could wear God down? That if I persisted in my stubbornness that He would relent and let me not do what the Word says?
I can remember times of telling my kids that they could have cookies and milk IF they would go clean their rooms.
They would disappear behind closed doors for a few minutes, then come back and ask for the cookies and milk.
I would go check their rooms - they hadn't cleaned!
So, I would be strong and say no to the cookies and milk. "Clean your rooms."
No matter the crying or arguing, no matter their stubbornness - I was bigger and more stubborn.
Rarely did I cave.
They soon realized to what point they could push mom - and they realized to what point I would NOT budge.
If they were hungry enough for cookies and milk - the rooms got cleaned!
Am I "wornout from groaning" enough? O Lord! I hope so!!!
"Away from me, all you who do evil, for the Lord has heard my weeping. The Lord has heard my cry for mercy; the Lord accepts my prayer."
vv. 8-9 ...What a precious promise!!! It is my lifeline. The Lord has heard ... the Lord accepts.
Father, I surrender my heart and my life. I surrender my will and my stubbornness. It's not worth it any more. I want the "cookies and milk" more than I want my own way! O Father! I am sorry. Please forgive me. And thank you for understanding the heart of a child. (Even when the heart is wrong :-)
I love you Lord!!!!!