We talked about life and home and work ...
and about trusting God.
It is hard to trust in a God that you cannot see or hear. You believe He is with you, you believe He sees and hears, you believe that He cares. But without skin on Him - it is hard sometimes to really trust in Him.
Until ... He uses life reality and lessons to teach us how.
In the course of conversation last night, I asked Joshua if he and his sister always understood their daddy and me in those years of growing up? The decisions we made. The things we said or did. Did they, our kids, always understand? Or did they always agree with us? No and No.
But - they always loved us and trusted us.
"Shut up momma. (LOL) That is not the answer I was wanting to hear right now! (LOL)"
And I think Joshua was right - sometimes God says no because He doesn't want to clean up our messes! LOL
I remember when Mandy and Joshua were little - there was time that they wanted Play-Doh. I said "no" ... not because it was bad for them, not because it was going to harm them in any way. But because I didn't want to clean up the mess that I knew they would make and leave! (BTW - they did eventually get Play-Doh ... when they were old enough to clean up their mess! LOL)
And sometimes God says no because He doesn't want to listen to us belly-ache over what He gave us ... when it was exactly what we asked for!
Joshua said that he knew a barrel full of cotton candy would not do long term damage to his kids - but he also knew that it would give them a belly-ache and make them sick. And that he and their momma would be the ones to listen and to clean it all up. So, his answer? Yes, you can have a serving of cotton candy - but NO you cannot have a barrel full.
And if we being evil know how to be good parents ... how much more does our Father in heaven know? And where do we get the knowledge to be good in the first place?
So, trusting in God isn't easy. But it is the only way that works!
Lord, help me trust in you with all my heart.
Lean not on my own understanding (which I don't have to start with).
Acknowledge you in all my ways.
You have promised to direct my paths and make them straight before me. Keep me to them.
Show me how to live in honor to you today.