This has been a tough week!
Sometime Sunday afternoon a headache came against me.
I fought it best I could. But to no avail.
The night came and I laid on what felt like a block of concrete.
Then, a migraine headache from HELL overwhelmed me on Monday.
I have headaches a lot, always have. I don’t remember a time before having headaches.
Mostly due to sinus/allergies, or stress.
When I was about 18 I went to Six Flags over Texas with a church group, and we rode The Shock Wave. Which messed my neck up horribly! I spent a week in the hospital with all kinds of specialists working over me, tests were run, I was sent to a brain specialist in Dallas. Suspected brain tumor, or brain cancer. But, it was all because of severe pinched nerves in my neck.
And those nerves flare up ever so often, making me have horrendous headaches.
I am also highly allergic to cigarette smoke, since I was a little girl, and when I breathe it in - well, a sinus infection sets in.
Even though I have had some #10 headaches in the last few years, it has been a LONG time since the wavy spot and bright lights.
Sitting at my computer Monday morning, writing in my prayer journal and enjoying a cup of coffee -
There appeared a spot about the size of a half-dollar that was like looking thru a glass of water.
It was on the left side of my left eye, and when I tried to look directly at it, it would move up.
It grew larger and larger.
When it was about the size of the top of a coffee cup, the broken and brightly colored lines appeared all around the edges.
It continued to grow.
This lasted about 30-45 minutes.
Then, it just went away - as quickly as it had come.
A breath of relief.
Because then the absolute WORST headache I have had in the last 7 or so years hit me.
The nausea began as well, with a mouth of what tasted like hot salt water.
(I don’t throw up very easy, takes a LOT to make me. But oh the nausea HURTS!!!)
I made it the 5 ft from the computer over to the futon.
No noise at all in the apartment.
I have a neck pillow that I now am in love with - and I put it behind my head.
Gingerly got the blanket I made from Rick’s t-shirts and covered up with it.
And I forced myself to swallow carefully and slowly.
As well as to breathe deeply in and let it out as slow as I could.
At some point, I fell asleep.
A couple of hours later I woke up, cold and shivering, yet feeling hot.
Temp was 98.9 - so that’s ok.
Headache was down to about a 10 at this point.
And most of the nausea had subsided.
I opened a can of cream of chicken soup, heated it and ate it slowly with a few crackers and cheese.
The rest of the day was pretty much spent on the futon until my back was hurting too bad, then set in the desk chair with the heating pad on my back until I felt like I was going to fall out of the chair - so back to the futon.
Bedtime came early. Just too exhausted to make it past 9 p.m.
Tuesday I just felt weak and weary.
Wednesday I was feeling better, but the headache was a dull roar. Literally a roar that I could hear when the apartment was all quiet.
Today, I felt like taking a shower, hoping the hot water on my head would make it feel better, and that soreness from the headache was gone enough that I could enjoy the shower.
So, at least I am clean now, LOL.
Still feeling some pain and pressure when I move certain ways.
Ears are still hurting, especially the left one.
And I feel like there is a band around my head that is tight then loose, then tight again, oh wait, it’s loose. No - tight.
It’s been a doozie of a headache this trip around!
I haven’t been doing a lot this week, because of the headache.
Well, except for thinking.
Thinking of the choices I have - the OR’s in my life.
One of them being that because of the headache, I didn’t feel like doing a lot of exercises this week -
But I also didn’t want to just sit.
So, I typed in “chair exercises” on YouTube.
And I have done some of them.
Modified mostly because of pain.
I could either sit and wait the headache out OR I could do what I can do, but not push myself to pain.
I chose OR.
One thing it has reinforced in me: I am overweight and out of shape! LOL
Which led me to another OR.
I can be discouraged and frustrated, just give up!
OR, I can press forward! Do as much as I can do without the pain, rest, and do some more.
I choose OR.
Remember, little by little choosing my OR
We are going to choose one OR the other
It’s up to us which one we reach for.
After doing the chair cardio workout this morning, something hit me like a Jethro-slap (NCIS, LOL)
This is going to help me NOT over-eat!
Why would I put myself thru these exercises, only to negate all of it by overeating?
Breathe on me, O Breath of God!
Refresh me, renew me
And revive me!
Take me forth into the rest of this day
Moment by moment
Step by step
Walk with me
Talk with me
And when it is time to rest, help me to do so with the thought to get up and do more! ;)
When it is time to eat (if), help me to do that with the thought to fuel the body, no more! ;)
In Jesus’ Name I ask
Thank You God for helping me, for being with me, for knowing me and for understanding me
I love You
Oh how I love You!!!
Blessed be the Name of the Lord!!!
The Lord, my Plan-Maker, my Way-Maker
The Lord, my Keeper
The One Who holds me ((( )))
Momma, you're not fat. You're fluffy!
These were the words of my precious little girl one day many years ago. The innocence of a child. The words both stung my eyes, and warmed my heart.