Well, Sweetheart ~ ~

It's been a while since I wrote anything here. 
I talk to you every day, all day long in my heart. 
Finding it hard to write the words though. 

I miss you. 
You always had my best interest in your heart. 
You shielded me, protected me, and cared for me, on every level, in every way. 
Thank you. 

Sometimes I hope you can hear me, feel me, see me. 
Other times? Not so sure. 

I wonder if you would be proud of me. 
I wonder so much these days. 

4 years without you. 
And tomorrow will be the 4th birthday I have endured since you went away. 
It really bothers me that I am older now than you will ever be … seems that we were both cheated out of so much. 

I wish I didn't have to do this alone anymore. 

I love you. 
​Always and forever.