I talk to you every day, all day long in my heart.
Finding it hard to write the words though.
I miss you.
You always had my best interest in your heart.
You shielded me, protected me, and cared for me, on every level, in every way.
Sometimes I hope you can hear me, feel me, see me.
Other times? Not so sure.
I wonder if you would be proud of me.
I wonder so much these days.
4 years without you.
And tomorrow will be the 4th birthday I have endured since you went away.
It really bothers me that I am older now than you will ever be … seems that we were both cheated out of so much.
I wish I didn't have to do this alone anymore.
I love you.
Always and forever.