2013 ...

Ever feel so far behind that you will never catch up? 
Ever think about not even trying to catch up? 
Sigh. 
Yes, I need another cup of coffee!!! =)

Working on the filing ... OMW!!! How did I get so far behind??? 
Cleaning out the files from all these years, retaining the last 3 ... and making new folders for the coming year. 

Today is to balance the checkbook and work on setting the budget for this year ... 
Lord, help us!!! You promised to meet our needs according to Your riches in glory thru Christ Jesus. Not according to our needs. Not according to what we have in the checkbook. But according to YOUR riches in glory thru Christ Jesus. 
THANK YOU!!! 

I have MUCH paperwork to go thru and organize ... MUCH reading and research needed ... trying to see into the darkness and figure out what we need and what we don't need. Lord, you know our lives. Help me thru all this - please. 

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Because of all this time at home for rest and recovery, Rick and I talked about it, prayed about it, and wrestled many days with it ... but, the installer is to be here this morning before noon and set TV service up. 
We realized that we have about exhausted the movie store since the end of July ... and we have watched and re-watched (and re-watched) our own movies. 
So, we have ordered Dish Network ... sigh. 

We read ... we talk ... we even play some games ... and we do what we can on the house ... but we end up with a lot of time on our hands ... and not a lot to occupy the minds. KWIM? 
We never realized how long the days can be - day after day spent at the house, with so little that we can do. 
Realizing now how easy it is for discouragement to set in and become depression. 

The loneliness is the hardest I think to deal with. Even tho Rick and I are together - we feel disconnected to the outside world. 
We pray that others will never know what we have known these last 6 months. 
Sigh.

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We have spent some time these last few days looking back over 2012 ... thinking of all the blessings that God has given. Remembering His ways of taking care of us. 
Amazed all over again with His goodness and His love. 

There have been so many challenges to us this past year. Challenges that we still face and deal with. 
Lessons we are still trying to learn and to do. 

We know that God walks with us and will never leave us nor forsake us. We are holding to His promises. 

"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior ... you are precious and honored in my sigh ... and ... I love you." Isaiah 43

But we still hurt ... we are still afraid ... and we are still lonely. 
And God is still with us. =) Quieting us ... loving us ... singing over us ... Thank you God!!! 

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The next few days will be spent working intently on getting order into our lives. Lord, help me!!! Please.

I know that God has a purpose and a plan for our lives - Jeremiah 29:11 ... sometimes I wish that He would just fold the curtains back a little and give us a glimpse of what He wants to do with us. 

Lord, help us to LIVE and not die ... and to LIVE as unto You. 

Thank you Je

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