A conversation not had

I sit here at 9:55 a.m. on this Saturday morning. 
I enjoyed a couple of cups of Southern Roasted Pecan coffee - oh my goodness! This tastes like Heaven must feel! Pretty sure God drinks this ;) LOL
Been watching it rain. People call me crazy, but I love a rainy morning. Especially when drinking a wonderful cup (or 3) of coffee! Listening to soft and gentle praise music, no words, just the music. Calms my heart and mind. 
And I am reminded all over again about how much I miss the conversations with Rick. 
There were battles of mind and will in our marriage. Even arguments sometimes. 
But when we sat with our coffee ... oh the conversations we would have. 
We could (and did) talk about anything. 
We would discuss and share. 
This morning I miss the conversations about God the most. 
How we would take a Bible verse or story, perhaps just a topic that we were interested in, and we would read ... and then talk. 
What did those verses say to you? To me? 
What application do they have in our life today? 
Intimate conversations.
No judgment if we disagreed.
How often the light bulb would go off for one of us, then for the other. 
We would smile, and sometimes a soft tear would roll down our cheek.
The hand that reached across the table and took mine in his - 
The look of love between us. 
Oh how I miss those conversations.
Even more so this morning. 

The topic of discussion on a Facebook post this morning was, "Was Jesus ever sarcastic?" 
One was very adamant in saying "NO! He was NOT!!!" 
No offense intended with my words then, or now - 
But ... 
Jesus WAS sarcastic. 
Jesus fought against an entrenched power structure. One that was in contrast to the Loving Heavenly Father. 
Sarcasm is the use of irony - saying one thing while meaning another.
Sarcasm and satire are both used to expose the foolishness of people's actions.
Used properly, it is gentle, but firm.
A way to get the point across to someone who is being hard headed and stubborn. 
So many people, especially Christians (or so it seems) have the misguided notion in their heads that all sarcasm and satire is sinful and wrong.
It doesn't have to be.
Therefore, nothing could be further from the truth. 
Sarcasm and satire are NOT plain old insults. 
Sarcasm and satire can be very pointed, provocative, rebuking even, but not sinful - IF what they convey is the truth. 

There are stories after stories of where He was talking with, to and about the Pharisees and religious leaders of the day, and He used sarcasm as a rhetorical weapon.
Mockery, satire, and sarcasm do not have to be mean spirited responses.
Sarcasm and satire defy the status quo, challenge power structures and strip away affectation.  
Jesus was all God, yes.
But Jesus was also all man.
A real human with real emotions, and a real sense of humor. 
Which made Him our Perfect Savior. 
He knew the life we live.
He knew how dirty and messy life gets.
And He showed us the way to stand firm in Who He is, and who we are - HIS. 
Jesus was sarcastic toward the Pharisees, and He was even snarky toward the Jews that wanted to stone Him, BUT
- and here's where reality meets Jesus:
He still died for each and every one of them. 
He loved them to the ends of the earth, and into eternity. 
He just didn't feign politeness when a dose of real sarcasm was necessary. 
He kept it REAL. 
And I for one, am so glad He did. 
Matthew 12:1-3
John 10:31-32
Luke 13:33 (Love, love, Love this one! He’s basically saying, “I know you Jews love to kill your prophets. Far be it from me not to trek back to Jerusalem to give you the opportunity. )
Matthew 23:4-7, 13-15 

Which all makes me very glad indeed that God understands me completely. 

I will continue to miss conversations not had, though. 
For there was another who understood me as well. 
​And I deeply miss being understood.