August 18th, 2012

9th day after diagnosis ... Uterine Cancer.
Still no appointment set with an oncologist.
Still frustrated, discouraged, scared to death.
Still trusting in the Lord to hold to me!!!

The last few days have been nothing less than a wild and horrible roller-coaster ride of emotions.
Guess that is to be somewhat expected at a time like this ... already dealing with major kidney injury and renal failure (Rick) ... a torn rotator cuff (Rick) ... and then to get the news that I have Uterine Cancer.
It has been a ride that I would not wish on my worst enemy!!!
And sadly - I know it isn't over yet ... not by a long shot. Sigh.

I never really knew how hard it is to not worry.
There is a difference in being concerned ... and in worrying. And we are fighting the battle against worry.
We do believe that God loves us, that He cares. And that He is fully aware of all that is going on. Nothing catches Him by surprise. He is never off guard.

I told Rick that I wish just for once that God could be standing in front of me with skin on. That way, I really could look into His eyes, feel His arms about me, hear Him breathe, and know His voice. 
Thank God for the "skin" of God I have before me in His children that are supporting me and loving me in the midst of all this. It is in you that I see His eyes, feel His arms about me, hear His breathe, know His voice. Thank you for being God with skin on to me, to us. I love you all!!!
 
Rick is having a LOT of pain with his shoulder. Wasn't hurting that bad before the MRI - but ever since he has been hurting! Thankfully he goes to see Dr. Cutrell on Tuesday this next week. We are going to ask if there is anything he can safely take or do that might ease the pain. Still 2 1/2 weeks before he sees the orthopedic specialist.

Joshua called me a couple nights ago ... was talking about the "Hatfield's and McCoy's" TV miniseries on the History Channel. OMW! He had me rolling in the floor laughing. I laughed so hard it made my stomach sore! LOL He is such a GOOBER!!! ROFL!!! I needed to laugh like that! Thank you my son!!! :-)

The weather is calling for a "cold front" to move thru our area today and tomorrow. Highs are to be in the mid-80's ... not "cold" - but cooler and more pleasant than the 100's that we have been enduring! I am looking forward to some time outside, sitting in my chair and sipping on a tall glass of iced tea!

Knowing that God has a plan ... we are waiting (not too patiently at times) on Him to work all things out ...
Pray for us please.

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