Coffee Thoughts About Life Lessons ... and Peace

Lessons are not always pleasant, nor easy, to learn. 
Seems sometimes we have to go thru a lot of heartache and tears before we actually learn anything. 
Albert Einstein said the definition of insanity is doing something over and over again and expecting a different result. 
If something doesn't work, back up, try something else. 
Trial & Error.
But learn from what didn't work. 
Don't keep doing it over and over again. 
Learn and grow. 
Mature. 

People come into our lives for lessons, for love, and for laughter.
Some stay ... and some are never meant to stay.
A lesson to be learned is to let them come into your life ... and let them go!
Letting them go is the tough one for most people, including me. 
Treasure the moments of laughter and love. 
Release the moments that hurt the heart. 
Breathe. 
Just breathe. 

One of the lessons I am learning (more slowly than I would like to admit), is to thank those who come into my life and mistreat me in any way.
They have made me change (not sure that is always a good thing, especially at the moment), made me different (again, is this a good thing? I hope so), made me stronger. 

Life is uncertain.
If I never understood that, I know that without question now.
Sometimes I still wish for a clarity of my life, a knowing better of what it will be.

It is one of the things I miss the most.
Clarity.
Direction. 
Knowing where I am going to be tomorrow, next week, next month.
Knowing that someone loves me, that I love someone back. 
Knowing that I am not alone in making decisions. 
Knowing that I had someone to talk out the choices and decisions that I face. 

However, I am more at peace than in a long time.
I am content with my life at this point. 
No, my life today isn't what I want for the rest of my life. 
But I accept that I am here today. 
And that tomorrow is not today. 

We all need a measure of contentment and peace.
It is the tranquility that carries us on the current thru life.
Like the current of a river.
If you look at a river, sometimes it looks as still as glass -
however, there is a current always moving deep within.
And sometimes that river is a raging torrent.
Still the current is beneath, moving the debris from the torrent along.
Contentment, peace, Joy - that is the current of our heart & life.
Happiness is only what others think they see in us, or hear in our words. 

My life (& my heart) is like a river, and it changes with the day and situation.
Some days I have a calmness that makes my life look like glass on the surface. 
Some days there is a storm raging within my thoughts & heart, and although no one can see the storm - they can hear the silence. Sadly, they usually assume that I am mad. I wish ... oh it doesn't matter. :(  
Some days there is an open storm and I feel swept from side to side, the fear and panic rises within me, and I don't always handle those days in a good way. 

Life at best is crazy.
Ups and downs.
Ebbs and flows.
It goes on.
Even when we want it to stop for a while.

I know that if life prevails I will have tomorrows.
If hopes happen then I will know love & joy yet again. 
I know that is what Rick wanted for me, but again, he had no idea what he was asking - nor did I know what I was promising. However, I now realize there is a lot of love left within me. 
Whether there is a 2nd chapter for me, or not, I will seek out ways to spread the true and pure love of my heart to those in my life. 
I also know that if tomorrow never comes, I am a blessed woman today.
If life changes (yet, again) on me, then I know I will survive.
​I have been thru the worst - and I am kicking the grief monster's ass every day. 

With the Southern grace and dignity I have been raised with, and have tried to live these 57 years with -
I will face each moment as it comes. 
I treasure each breath - remembering that the little things mean the most.

These are some of the memes that have meant the most to my heart this week - perhaps they will touch your heart as well.