Early, early morning thoughts

First of all, I want to say HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to our son, Joshua, and his wife, Dessie. I am so thankful that God has allowed me to be Momma to both of them! I know that life is just LIFE - some days good and some days not so good, and even some days just bad. But I thank God that Joshua and Dessie have one another to get thru LIFE. I believe that God knew what He was doing when He put them together! 

Here at Coffee Creek RV Resort, we had our Monday night meal last night. It was "Bring your own meat" - the guys cooked on the grill. Glenda brought baked potatoes, Mary Ann had the salad, Edna made a delicious English Pea salad, there was rice, watermelon, and other foods as well. I made buttermilk pies, adding coconut to one of them, and "ooey, gooey" brownies. Yes, we ate good! And the sweet fellowship and laughter was even better than the food!!!!! 
Next Monday night we are not having our meal - but rather waiting until Thursday night. The "Pick 'n Jam" starts on Thursday, runs thru Saturday. So, Thursday night is "Potluck Dinner" - y'all come! You won't be disappointed!!!!! 

--On a side note ... while I was cooking the pies and brownies yesterday afternoon, my phone rang. I reached to pick it up, hit the answer button, and it flew out of my hand! Landed face down on the concrete floor ... and yes - busted it bigger than Dallas! I thought at first that it was ok - after all, I know others who have a broken screen and continue to use their phones. Alas, my phone has decided to be one of the difficult ones - and about 90% or better will not work. Friday we will find a Sprint store and hopefully I will merit favor with them! Thankfully, we still have Rick's phone. But I do feel lost without mine!!!!! 

Y'all be in prayer for Rick, please. He is struggling with everything that comes with being a dialysis patient, as well as the nerve damage from the shoulder surgery a couple of years ago. His hands aren't working like they used to, and he drops more things, spills more - and he gets very frustrated and discouraged, some days worse than others. 
It's hard realizing that what you once thought would get better, probably in fact, won't. Oh there will be better moments here and there, but for an over-all getting better? Not when you are dealing with a chronic illness. 
It means re-learning a whole way of LIFE. And struggling against the disappointments, the discouragements, the changes, the frustrations - time after time, day after day. 
...not so easy for him. Or for me. Sigh. 

I am battling one of those pre-migraine headaches. Hoping that it decides to stay as a "pre-" and not become a full blown one. Haven't slept much lately. Either body not being able to find that sweet spot of comfort (too much pain), or just insomnia striking yet once again (seems to go in spurts every few weeks). 
Rick had a bad dialysis night last night. Not a bad night for the cycler and the UF number. But a bad night in that he felt trapped by the machine - he has never wanted to be dependent on a machine to live, and some nights, it slaps him in the face that he is indeed dependent on this cycler (machine) to live. He also missed his afternoon pain meds - he was down at the Star helping me with the pies and the brownies. And when he misses those afternoon meds, the pain gets ahead of him. The neuropathy in his feet and legs seems to be getting worse, more intense, more often. 
So, needless to say, I didn't get much sleep last night ... finally finding a couple of hours this morning around 4 a.m. Then about 45 minutes this afternoon after we finished working for Scott here at the park. 
And now tonight ... sigh. Rick went to bed a few minutes after 10 p.m. -- I tried. But between the pain in this body, the headache that was worse when I laid down, and the insomnia -- just got up! Good grief! Been surfing around on the computer a little, some Facebook time, working on saving my stuff from this computer so that I can get it all transferred to the new computer. 
Here it is 1:10 a.m. and I still am not yawning ... still wide awake ... and yes, even after pain meds - still fighting the headache. 

Day after tomorrow, September 5, 2014 - Rick and I will celebrate our 34th Wedding Anniversary. 34 years ... he told everyone at the office the other day that it only seemed like 34 minutes .....................
Under Water! That man! Good thing I still love him! LOL 

We are taking the day off from the park Friday. Going to take a drive south-east of here. Going to Granbury and Glen Rose. Drive around. Look around. See what we can find history-wise. 

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to my husband, Ricky Lee McCoy. I loved you then ... and I love you now! Always and forever! We are still each other's "Bridge Over Troubled Waters" ... I LOVE YOU!!!!! 

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