God is God. That is my hope. My peace. My strength. My sanity. God is God. Thankfully, no matter the storms of our lives, God is God. Nothing and no one can change Him. And when the storms are raging - I need that stability, that unchanging of God.
This has been a rough week - I wrote about it in 3 posts HERE.
One of those weeks that leaves you feeling exhausted, weak, and weary. I have had so many emotions this week - with a lot of tears.
I told Rick that I was just tired IN taking care of him - and thankfully, he understood, no offense taken.
But I am tired OF taking care of myself. Just in that place that I want to be loved on, taken care of. No worries about food or drink. Nothing to do for just a little while. I want to know that Rick is taken care of. I just want to sleep a while!!! Is that selfish? Is that wrong? Maybe not ... but seems pretty unattainable! Especially this weekend. Sigh.
I have an appointment in Houston on Tuesday this next week. We are going to leave here on Monday afternoon. I need to do some things here in the house this weekend- knowing that we can't get it all done, because of our limitations. Need to pack. Should only be there a couple of days - depending on what Dr. Michael says, or any tests he wants.
Last we heard Rick's parents are going with us. I hope it will be a good trip - regardless of who goes with us, and who doesn't.
I think we will look to see if there are any sights to see, or things to do along the way - cheaply! Make more of this trip than just a doctor's appointment.
Looking forward to seeing Al & Christine again. They are so special to us. Family, yes. But oh so much more than family! Friends! Precious treasures!
Missing my kids and grandkids ... sigh. Got to see a couple of "my boys" yesterday at Wal-mart ... Johnny and Jay. And it was good to see them - they are looking good. Good to get a hug from each one of them. They both spent many hours at our house when they were growing up with our kids. :-)
But, I miss Mandy ... between her work schedule this week, and our doctors/hospitals ... and now they are out of town for the weekend ... we will be out of town at least 2 days next week -- yes, I miss her!
And I miss Joshua and Dessie ... goodness! I haven't seen them since Labor Day. How much I would LOVE to sit with them and just listen to them. Hear their voices and see their faces. Feel the touches of my grandkids - all of them. Sigh. Kinda oofie today for the wind beneath my wings.
So why "Scattered Feathers" ? ? ?
You can read it here