July 24, 2011

Whew! I "think" I have finally gotten all the different blogs together as one. Here.
Got "tags" (or labels) on each post ... maybe it is all going to work, make some sense.
LOL!
Still working on it all. Tweaking. At some point, maybe I will get it "right"! LOL
Course, I am not going to count my chickens just yet either! LOL

Still praying about our life. We are so much more than just a trucker and a ride along wife. But with this job - it is hard to
see  that! Just trying to put all the pieces together in a way that actually *WORKS*. 
Sigh.
Some days (actually most days lately) it feels like all we do is "drive our life away".
Sigh.
I know that trucking is a vital part of America.
If you eat it, drink it, wear it, or use it  in ANY way - you got it from a truck at some point. And I am proud of my husband for being a trucker.
I'm just tired I guess.
Still feeling that loneliness and lostness ... looking for a  purpose and for direction.

Spent some time yesterday with our daughter and grandkids.
:-) Laughter and love and hugs. Always good! :-)

I miss the kids and the grandkids the most when we are on the road. The grandkids are all growing up so fast. I know that they won't forget us between visits ... but it sure feels like we are missing SO MUCH!!!

Learning to lean on the Lord and trust in His promises. Breathing in and breathing out. Not easy.
Especially when my heart is so heavy, my spirit so burdened. I find myself praying A LOT! Crying out to the Lord of my soul for wisdom, for direction, for understanding.  

Proverbs 4:23-27 ... "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. Put away perversity from your mouth; keep corrupt talk far from your lips. Let your eyes look straight ahead,  fix your gaze directly before you. Make level paths for your feet and take only ways that are firm. Do not swerve to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil.

Proverbs 3:5-7 ... "Trust in the Lord wtih all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil."

These have become my "life verses". A prayer of my heart. The direction of my soul.
Lord, help me.  

Proverbs 25 ...
v. 11 - "A word aptly spoken is like apples of gold in settings of silver."
The Lord has been teaching me to just "shut up and pray". Which is not an easy lesson for Him to teach - cause it
certainly is not an easy lesson for me to learn! 

I am a talker - anyone who knows me, knows that! So, to just shut up ... sigh.
It is hard to learn (or for me it is) when to talk, and what to say. 

v. 13 - "Through patience a ruler can be persuaded, and a gentle tongue can break a bone."

Psalm 64 ...

Luke 6:46 - "Jesus replied, "And you experts in the law, woe to you, because you load people down with burdens they can hardly carry, and you yourselves will not lift one finger to help them.""

I read these words that Jesus spoke so many years ago - and then, I wrote this and posted on my note section of Facebook -
"Just a few thoughts"

Job 33 ...
v. 4 - "The Spirit of God has made me; the breath of the Almighty gives me life." 
v. 14 - "For God does speak - now one way, now another - though man may not perceive it."