Pity party vs gratefulness ...

Ever have one of "those" days that you struggle in every thought, every breath, every movement to remember to be grateful instead of wallowing in a pity party?
Well ...
Today is that day for me. For us.

Is it because of the pain and pain meds? Thanking God that I survived surgery. Thanking God for the doctors that have helped and brought me this far. Having had 8 units of blood in the last 2 months, it was getting SERIOUS! Thanking God for pain meds that help to hold the pain at bay without knocking me on my butt.
The gloomy clouds outside making for a gloomy attitude inside? Thanking God for the cooler weather. The heat flashes are horrible in the hotter weather!
Cabin fever? Thanking God for a house to be in ... one that is safe and secure from the weather changes.
Feeling such a captive ... 4 days in the hospital ... 7 days at home ... can't get out, can't go anywhere. Thanking God for a phone ... and for the Internet ... for my daughter who comes at least once a day (usually twice a day) ... Rick's parents who have checked on us just about every day.   
Lonesome and blue ... Thankful for the Presence of God - in the day light, and in the darkest nights. No matter the pain or anything - God is there beside me.
Bored with movies ... no TV service ... Thankful for movies that we can watch and enjoy - and that they are worth watching (well, mostly - LOL).  
Because of tired of hurting? Momma always said that pain makes you know you are ALIVE ... so trying to be thankful for the pain.
Feelings of trepidation over Rick having surgery and being down even more than he is now? Thankful that God has promised to never leave us nor forsake us. No matter what we go thru. No matter who is with us as we go thru it all. God is here. God is there. God remains.
Hunger pains occasionally now - but not wanting anything we have. Just tired of sandwiches and frozen foods. Can't cook (not for another 4 weeks) - and it hurts Rick to do too much cooking. Thankful for a husband who is willing to cook since I cannot. Thankful that for the next 10 days Rick can cook. Thankful for food to cook even if it isn't what I want. LOL

Just one of "those" days ... sigh ...

Also - Rick is on the phone with his best friend ... who has cancer.
I was on the phone with my best friend ... who's mother in law is dying with cancer.
Sigh....

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