Coffee Love
  • Coffee Love
  • My shoebox
    • Who, or what, am I?
    • Way of Wonder
    • Did You Know?
    • Stay the Course
    • Respect, Honor, Gratitude
    • We Remember
    • Favorite Links
    • Junk Drawer
  • Scattered Feathers
    • Faith Statement
    • Hope in Song
    • Memes to Remember
    • Coffee Love Images
    • Moments to Memories
    • Kids & grandkids
    • Those Gone Before Me
    • Roots & Wings
    • Love Notes
    • ^Angel^ Memories
  • Hungry?
    • Appetizers
    • Bread
    • Casseroles
    • Crockpot Love
    • Meats
    • Veggies
    • Desserts - oh my!
  • Adventures in Life
    • Little by Little
    • Calendar
  • Hitch Your Wagon
  • Experience Pearls

When the mind is tired, the heart weary ...

10/16/2019

0 Comments

 
Picture
I've been thinking about this meme a lot lately. What choice do I have but to accept what has happened and do my best at continuing to live this life I have been given. Isn't it the way to truly honor the life and legacy of my husband? I don't like what has happened. I don't enjoy living this life alone. I miss so stinking much. But I can't change it all by fighting against it. 
​
A mountain man tries to live with the country instead of against it.
Louis L'Amour
I believe these are not only wise words, but true to the core. 
This IS my life. Mostly moving confusingly along each moment. 
Not sure how to come to terms with Rick's death - or if I can. Something to be accepted, simply because I cannot change it. But "to come to terms" when it means simply to "reach an agreement with"? Nope. I cannot. For I cannot agree to Rick's death. I want him to go back and fight for health and life while he had a chance. I want the outcome to be different. He always told me to go back to sleep and make the dream have a different ending. I want to go back to sleep so that this nightmare can change. Sigh. 
"Sometimes you will have to give yourself your own closure." I think that would be the greatest gift. 

Picture
Picture


All of these words are true, too. 
I think I am finally getting to the point where it's all sinking in to my soul, in an accepting sort of way. 
I'm learning my value, my worth. 
I'm learning to exercise self-respect. 
I'm learning to take steps back away from others, and step towards myself. 
Still trying to figure out what I deserve ... Sigh.



 


I find myself crying out so often these days, "I just want to go home!" 
And then I stop, dry my eyes, and say out loud yet again, "There remains no more home for me." 
So, I take a deep breath, and find something to occupy my thoughts for a few more minutes, until the next cry of my soul finds its way out. 
I just want to go HOME. 





Picture
Picture



​
All of the above.
​


0 Comments

Your comment will be posted after it is approved.


Leave a Reply.

    So why "Scattered Feathers" ? ? ? 

    You can read it here

    Picture
    Picture
    Picture
    Picture
    Picture
    Picture
    Picture
    Picture
    Picture
    Picture

    Past Posts

    February 2021
    January 2021
    December 2020
    November 2020
    October 2020
    August 2020
    June 2020
    May 2020
    April 2020
    March 2020
    February 2020
    January 2020
    December 2019
    November 2019
    October 2019
    September 2019
    August 2019
    July 2019
    June 2019
    May 2019
    April 2019
    March 2019
    February 2019
    January 2019
    November 2018
    October 2018
    September 2018
    August 2018
    July 2018
    June 2018
    May 2018
    April 2018
    March 2018
    February 2018
    January 2018
    December 2017
    October 2017
    August 2017
    June 2017
    January 2017
    November 2016
    October 2016
    August 2016
    July 2016
    June 2016
    May 2016
    April 2016
    March 2016
    February 2016
    January 2016
    December 2015
    November 2015
    October 2015
    September 2015
    August 2015
    July 2015
    June 2015
    May 2015
    April 2015
    March 2015
    February 2015
    January 2015
    December 2014
    November 2014
    October 2014
    September 2014
    August 2014
    July 2014
    June 2014
    May 2014
    April 2014
    March 2014
    January 2014
    December 2013
    November 2013
    October 2013
    September 2013
    August 2013
    July 2013
    June 2013
    May 2013
    April 2013
    March 2013
    February 2013
    January 2013
    December 2012
    November 2012
    October 2012
    September 2012
    August 2012
    July 2012
    June 2012
    May 2012
    April 2012
    March 2012
    February 2012
    January 2012
    August 2011
    July 2011
    June 2011
    April 2011
    March 2011
    February 2011
    October 2010

    RSS Feed

    Picture
    Picture


Website designed & developed by Margaret McCoy

​
God is God over the storms in my life & world -
and I am His.
Trusting in Him. Holding to His Promises as He holds me.

​
Learning to laugh, to love, & to live ... again - without Rick, but with God

Life goes on ... even when we don't want it to.

Great grief is indicative of a great Love.

Rick, my Sweetheart.
Margaret, his Beloved.
Always & Forever.
​
Picture
©Margaret McCoy, Coffee Love Princess
  • Coffee Love
  • My shoebox
    • Who, or what, am I?
    • Way of Wonder
    • Did You Know?
    • Stay the Course
    • Respect, Honor, Gratitude
    • We Remember
    • Favorite Links
    • Junk Drawer
  • Scattered Feathers
    • Faith Statement
    • Hope in Song
    • Memes to Remember
    • Coffee Love Images
    • Moments to Memories
    • Kids & grandkids
    • Those Gone Before Me
    • Roots & Wings
    • Love Notes
    • ^Angel^ Memories
  • Hungry?
    • Appetizers
    • Bread
    • Casseroles
    • Crockpot Love
    • Meats
    • Veggies
    • Desserts - oh my!
  • Adventures in Life
    • Little by Little
    • Calendar
  • Hitch Your Wagon
  • Experience Pearls