We are beginning to get a breath of spring - at least every once in a while. And no, I am not talking about the weather. Although, Spring is just a few more days away, weather-wise.
Spring to me is new life. A shaking off the cold, the hardness of life. A new beginning. New growth. Warmer winds. Sweet smelling flowers.
Oh how I pray that Rick and I are having a spring time in our life!!! That all this is not just a dream, a mist of what could be!!! Kwim? Sigh.
God has been so good to us thru all these hours/days/nights/weeks/months ...
I have had 2 surgeries ... Rick has had 2 surgeries ... and we have spent the last 4-8 months in a deep and cold and hard "winter". And we know that we haven't "arrived" at healing yet. We are better than we were ... but we still face a long road of limitations and challenges and changes.
Lord, help us!!! Do not let us go - don't ever let us go!!!
For all of God's blessings - we say thank you. We want to live a thankful life ...not just in words.
To Jimmy for all his hard work in getting us wood, splitting and stacking, bringing it into the house, even help in keeping the fires going.
To Jimmy and Mary Lou for all the loads of laundry that have been done.
To Jimmy and Mary Lou for all the other ways you have helped us.
To Billy and Mickie for the visits - the laughter. For the chicken pot pie! Oh my!!! How good it was!!!
To Robert and Sandy for the heaters. They have helped us so much thru this - when the wood fires just were not enough, or when we just could not maintain them.
To Double N Cowboy Church - for all your thoughts and prayers, for the prayer quilt, for your friendship, for the love and the laughter.
To Al and Christine for all the times you opened your home and your hearts to a couple of scared and shaken people.
To Bro. Jeremy for being with me when Rick had to have his surgery. I was so afraid, but your calmness made me more settled.
To Craig and Colleen, to Brian and Vanessa, to David and Kathleen, to Mary - for the monies that you sent at a most critical time! As well as for all the phone calls, the texts, the comments - for your love and your care! You are closer to us than words could describe. We love you so much!!!
To all those who have commented on Facebook, or on my website - www.kamelotrose.com
To Mike and Nina for opening your hearts, your home. For making us to know that we were staying at a 5-star bed and breakfast! Yet, to be staying in the heart so much longer!
To our daughter, Amanda. For all those early mornings that you stopped on your way to work. For those hugs when I was crying - either just because of screwed up hormones, or out of pain, from frustrations and discouragements. For all those times you listened. For letting me lean on you.
To our daughter in love, Dessie. For all those phone calls. Especially on those days when no one else called. You did. You made me laugh. You gave me an outlet for my stress. You were there!!! For opening your home to us. Making us feel not only welcome, but wanted.
To our son, Joshua. For all those phone calls, those precious moments of your time and life. When you could have been doing something else, talking to someone else. You called and you talked and you listened to your momma. For allowing us to come and stay with you. For the laughter - I still laugh over that game of UNO!!! LOL
To all those who have called or texted.
And to all those that I have failed to mention - but not with intent have I omitted anyone.
And now? With Spring breathing upon us ... we take a deep breath, say a heavy prayer, and we take some steps of faith -- knowing that the God of angel armies walks with us!!!
All things change ...
This weekend even time changes ...
And so our lives change yet again - but at least this time, it is more a change of CHOICE.
Rick and I are exhausted with trying to keep this house, and be alone so much of the time.
We have sat here hours upon days with only one another to talk to, no where to go (no money for extra fuel - barely enough to get back and forth to the doctors, and sometimes not even that), nothing to do (because of the various restrictions on us both post-surgeries).
We have known thirst and hunger - being so short of money that some days we have eaten two meals, and a few days, only one. Even losing our phones and Internet because I had to make a choice between paying the phone bill or buying some groceries.
The house has fallen farther and farther into not only disrepair, but an uncleanliness that isn't healthy to either of us. And there again, because of restrictions on us post-surgeries, we are unable to do it all.
So, after MUCH thought, talk and prayer ... we have decided to split our time between Joshua and Dessie & Chris and Mandy.
We enjoy our kids and grandkids - and they can help us with what we cannot do.
And we will be there to help them some, too. At least we can watch the grandkids, spending quality time with them, while the big kids work on what they need to do.
We have been going thru stuff a little at a time. We have gathered in so much over the years - much more than we can take care of. We are dividing our stuff with all the kids and grandkids. If they want it? For the most part, it's theirs.
We have packed boxes so light that I can handle them with one hand - so, needless to say we have A BUNCH!!! LOL
We are going to keep this house - it is Rick's inheritance, and we will need a place to lay our heads when we are in this area anyway.
So we won't be having to move any heavy furniture - a relief!!!
We began loading the car and truck yesterday ... just a little at a time - what we can honestly handle.
Once it is loaded, and the house is put in some semblance of order and clean - we will be driving out to Joshua's for the first leg of this change.
We will spend the next couple of weeks with them .. And then, we will be back here - spending time with Mandy.
We will maintain our doctors as is - not much difference in travel time to get to them.
Pray for all of us - Rick, Me, Chris and Mandy, Joshua and Dessie, all the grandkids - it will be a time of change and transition. We will all have to work together to make this really work. Thankfully, we all love one another already! LOL But, I am sure and positive that there will be moments and even days, that our love will be sorely tested and tried.
I will not have a solid stream of the Internet. So, my postings may be sporadic for a while. Some days more than one - some days not at all.
So why "Scattered Feathers" ? ? ?
You can read it here