5 years now.
5 years since I have seen into Rick's eyes 5 years since I have felt his touch 5 years April 23, 2015 when Rick drew his final breath Here upon this earth 5 years April 25, 2015 when I saw his face for the last 5 years April 26, 2015 when we gathered As family and friends to celebrate a life well lived 5 years April 27, 2015 when everyone returned to their homes Their lives moving forward Their hearts stepping into healing 5 years that I have been a widow Time amazes me How can it be so slow, while going so fast? We were constant companions and partners in life He was my Sweetheart I was his Beloved We seldom spent more than an 8 hour work day away from one another And the last few years of his life, after the kids were grown, we worked together Miles and hours spent in each others' company We were so much more than husband and wife We were best friends at the core of our relationship And everything else grew out of that We truly were in a "fellow-ship" with one another Then, life fell apart Dreams were left undone My heart was left broken, My life was shattered on the floor Not sure of anything any more More questions than answers God seemed an eternity away from my heart Abandoned I was Lonely & scared What choice did I have Strong I had to be It's been a tough 5 years for me I've made choices and decisions based on what I assumed was the best for me, for my children and my grandchildren And life fell apart yet again Just when I thought I was getting my feet under me Just when I thought life might actually work out Just when I thought I had purpose, a reason to get up in the mornings Life jerked it all away Rudely Hatefully Left me crumpled in a corner yet again What could I do but cry out to God God who was always there God who was wiping away my tears God who wept with me God who held me even while I struggled against His embrace Crying out to Him I found His heart of Amazing Grace I felt His hands of mercy covering me I heard His voice singing over me, Quieting me with His love. Now held by Him No judgment from His heart No condemnation from His voice Only Love & Grace Holding me in His warm embrace Never again will I need to stand alone For the God of angel armies is always by my side Unending Love is now my Strength Often still this warrior is a child And when fear assails I simply Trust in Jesus Knowing He knows me He is God, I don't have to be God has brought me home to Him Giving me roots yet again in His Word Setting me up on angel's wings Guarded and protected Guided moment by moment Day by day Still stumbling and faltering But I don't have to do this alone any longer God holds my hand The tears still come But Jesus wept, too. Where will life take me from here? Only Heaven knows and now? I'm ok with that
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