It's been a while ... Too Long
Well, here I sit, and it has been over a month since I have written again - actually in 6 days it will have been 2 months! Life has gotten in the way, too much.
Hub Cap Annie has moved to a larger location, just around the corner - to 38 W. 2oth Street in Paris KY. That has taken a lot of time and energies, and still not completely moved, certainly not unpacked and settled in yet.
A few road-trip times chasing items for the office & shop.
One of the best was on a Sunday, driving into Ohio. It was a beautiful & sunny day. Weather was just about perfect in every way. Lunch was at Bob Evans. Stopped for frozen yogurt on the way back to Paris. Interesting conversations. Lots of stories told. Laughter abounded. Out of the office. Away from the TV. Oh yes, the tunes were playing! Sweet tea to drink. My oh my! Yes, it was a good day.
Later in the month of August, a round of allergies kicking my butt. Didn't seem to last too long, thankfully. Still having a little cough lingering. But I dosed up on Vitamin C, Cranberry pills, and drank enough water to float the Titanic back to surface. Lol
Someone found a way to access my bank account this past week. Took over $2000 from me. The bank and I worked on it yesterday. I filed a police report. I hate a thief and a liar. I know that whoever did this has no conscience or remorse, or they wouldn't have done it in the first place. I hope #karmaisabitch and comes calling on them soon, hard & long!
Trying to rest - at least some. Not sure I am, I feel so very worn out. Thinking that a big part is simply a tiredness of spirit and heart. The tiredness that sleep doesn't fix. I feel very strongly that I need some downtime ... take a long walk ... a hot shower ... drink some coffee, but not on the go ... read a book ... maybe color a few pages ... work on my website - I really miss doing that more often ... sweet conversation with a trusted friend who has no judgment, just sound counsel ... a few thousand hugs and kisses from my kids & grandkids ... Sigh.
I am taking a deep breath the rest of today and this weekend. No matter where I am, or who I may be with, nor what I am doing ... these next few hours & days are going to be more about ME. Resting. Relaxing. Trying to get refreshed a little. At least inwardly, if not able to on the outside.
The weather here has been a mixture of hot and cool ... I much prefer the fall coolness. It's back into the hotter side for these next 7 days. Ick!
Not only do I need cooler weather to enjoy, but I sure could use a glass or 3 of Pink Moscato wine. I am not a drinker by nature. However, I do enjoy the Pink Moscato.
Been thinking about a hot tub.
Lights down low.
Soft music playing.
A rolled up towel behind my neck.
A cool drink in hand.
Ahhhh...this would be the absolute definitive meaning of SERENITY.
In 6 days it will have be my 39th wedding anniversary. And my 4th one without Rick.
This was the one that we had talked about so often ... planned for ... dreaming of what to do.
He always said that we would be "39 and holding" this year.
Now, I sit here alone.
Wondering what to do.
Should I do anything?
Or do I just let it come and go?
We made it to 34 years, 7 months, 17 days and 11 hours.
Yes, it was a life together worth celebrating.
I know I will spend a lot of time these next 10 days remembering. Missing him. Thinking about our life together and simply being thankful for the time we had - for it could have been no time together.
I was loved.
Cared about and cared for.
I was blessed.
I have oft been told to "just be thankful that you had something most people never have an hour of" ... and I am. But at times like this? That is of little comfort. When my heart cries out for a hug ... when my lips ache to be kissed ... when my soul yearns to be touched ... Sigh.
Life goes on.
Even when we don't want it to.
Life goes on.
There are too many things I miss to name them one by one.
I will just let the tears and the heart ache tell the story of our love.
So why "Scattered Feathers" ? ? ?
You can read it here