I wonder how that is even possible?
We never spent over 24 hours apart, and even then, we were on the phone most of those hours.
How have I endured 1,453 days without him?
I miss you Rick. There will always be an emptiness inside of me where our love lived and our life was shared. No matter where I am, or what I do - I will love you, I will miss you. You were the absolute best part of me.
I have spent a lot of sleepless hours these last few weeks.
Wondering who I am?
What am I supposed to do?
Where am I to be?
Is there a 2nd chapter of love and life for me?
Will my destiny now be followed out alone?
I miss so much, Rick.
Arms to hold me.
Ears to listen without judgment.
Commitment without fear or worry.
I miss you so stinking much.
I even miss our arguments. The freedom to disagree without fear of reprisal.
I love you.
I wish you were here now.