Alone. Some days just prove it.

There are those who will say I am whining ... perhaps I am. 
But then, perhaps I have a right to whine ever so often. 
I listen to whining every damn day. In real life ... on Facebook ... on Twitter. 
Hell, turn on the news! You will hear whining, too! 
There are those who will say I am being selfish ... perhaps I am. 
But then, perhaps I have a right to be selfish every once in a while. 
We live in a selfish-all-about-me society. 
You know, where it doesn't matter what others feel, or think, or say. 
All that matters is what YOU feel or think or say. 
No one else can be right or even tolerated in "YOUR world, YOUR land". 
(insert rolling eyes here)
There are those who will say I am only feeling sorry for myself ... perhaps I am.
But then, after all the hell I have been thru ... and the hell I live with every day, every night? 
Dammit! I have a right to feel sorry for myself sometimes. 
Hell, I feel sorry for others who have been thru hell ... or that are going thru hell. 
So why not feel sorry for myself, too? 
There are those who will say I have no right to feel the way I do ... Oh yes I do! 
Bite me! 

Yesterday was National Cancer Survivor Day. 
It was on the news. 
It was all over Facebook.
It was on Twitter ... Instagram ... Pinterest ... 
and the list goes on. 

I have survived cancer. 
Not one word was said to me in celebration of surviving. 
Not one recognition that I am alive - no thanks to the attack on my body and life by that monster. 

I shared a moment of hurt with someone that I trust ... and all I heard? 
"Oh, I didn't know that was today."
Then when I commented that because I didn't have to have treatments for the cancer, there are those who say (insist) that I did not have cancer.
(Doesn't matter what the oncologist said, doesn't matter what the path reports show.)
The response? 
"Well, you certainly surround yourself with a lot of Negative Nellies, don't you?" 

It has been said many times that in the darkness is where you find out who is on your side. 
Guess yesterday told me what I need to know. 

This meme says it all ... "YOU JUST GOT TO GIVE YOURSELF!"