My heart ...

I have sinned against God and fallen short of His glory. 
And in the process I have hurt others in my life. 
I am sorry. 
Because I can do nothing to change the past, 
with many a river of bitter tears and mountains of regret - 
I have repented of my sin, and called on God 
Asking for His forgiveness, 
And receiving it moment by moment, day by day.
I have also asked forgiveness from those I have in any way offended,
If by chance I missed You - please forgive me for that, too. 
Because of God’s Amazing Grace and Unending Love, 
Because of God’s Hands of Mercy - 
I have been forgiven, 
And now will walk as one forgiven.
The Bible tells me that I am a new creation in Christ, old things are passed away, behold all things have become new! 
I am going to live that to the best of my ability, with the Grace of God to help me. 
I know there are those, and will always be those, who do not want to see me forgiven. 
They would prefer I walk with a beaten down heart, 
A spirit of contrition that is obvious - such as in sackcloth and ashes, or wailing for forgiveness
I will no longer do that. 
No longer will I explain or defend my life - past, present, or future.
I am who I am. 
Good, bad, or indifferent.
It has all worked together to make me who I am today. 
Everything is either a blessing, or a lesson.  
I do not ask for explanation or self-defending from anyone else in my life, 
So therefore I will no longer be giving it from mine.
If someone has a heart to pray with me, or pray for me, about a particular “issue” in my life - 
Then, yes, it will be an honor to talk with them, and be honest. 
But for those who are hell-bent on making me live in misery for past mistakes? 
Well, I’m not going to play your games any longer. 
Everyone has to make their own choices and decisions - and answer for them. 
We all make mistakes. 
In some way, large or small, every one of us have screwed up! 
And if you haven’t yet? 
Mark my word - YOU WILL. 
It is to the honor of my God to walk in the victory of forgiveness
It is with gratitude that I humbly accept His Grace, His Mercy, His Love 
Just because someone else cannot accept that I have been forgiven, does not make me unforgivable. 
I am not living my life to please any person. 
My heart’s desire is to live in peace as much as it depends on me - 
But when that “depends on me” reaches the level of condemnation and judgment? 
No. Just No. 

Anyone doesn’t like the way I live my life? 
Then they need to pray about it, and pray for me -
- that I may listen to the voice of God speaking thru His Word, and know the paths to take. 
But while they are praying? 
Pray for themselves not to be so judgmental and assuming!!!