Pictures of Me

It was suggested to me that I document this grief walk in pictures. Which is really out of my comfort zone - because I do NOT like my own pictures. But - as a form of visual therapy, I took the advice ... which is one of the reasons I post my pictures (certainly not out of vanity do I do that!).
And then, I look back at the pictures - and wow.
I can see the before Rick peace, love, and joy ...
and then the grief ...
and now I see the healing around the grief.
I know that I will always grieve for Rick, for the life that we missed having together.
I will forever love him.
But I also know that life moves forward.

I am learning to love again ... learning to love ME the way that I deserve to be loved ... learning to love my kids and grandkids - without daddy and p-paw ... learning to love family and friends - alone ... learning to love the music once again ... learning to love this life I have been given ... --
And there are many who do not understand the way I am loving and living. Well, I am learning to love you, too.

​This was a very well written piece - by "Widows Wear Stilettos"
Our hearts have an infinite capacity to love.
It is a fact.
No matter what new love comes into your life
or in what form that new love arrives
(because "new love" does not necessarily have to be a person),
Your heart can love to the extent that you permit it to do so.
And if it is your choice to love something or someone new,
you should permit your heart to do so without any limitations.
None.
Your heart has broken.
Your heart has wept.
Your heart works overtime every single day
in order to mend.
Why not allow your heart every opportunity to soar…
To sing…
To dance...
To delight in life once again.
No guilt,
No "cheating"
and no “forgetting” the past
is or should ever be involved in loving anything or anyone
in a new life.
Do not allow ANYONE to try to convince you otherwise…
…including you.